' The Pain of Ego '...

An ego we have, we are; its existence is inescapable if the cosmic thought is to be activated and the human evolution in it is to develop.

Why has it become, then, a source of evil, friction, suffering, and horror?

The energy and instinct, the intelligence and desire which are contained in each individualized fragment of consciousness, each compounded "I," are not originally evil in themselves; but when the clinging to them becomes extreme, selfishness becomes strong.

There is a failure in equilibrium and the gentler virtues are squeezed out, the understanding that others have rights, the feeling of goodwill and sympathy, accommodation for the common welfare--all depart.

The natural and right attention to one's needs becomes enlarged to the point of tyranny.

The ego then exists only to serve itself at all costs, aggressive to, and exploitive of, all others.

It must be repeated: an ego there must be if there is to be a World-Idea.

But it has to be put, and kept, in its place (which is not a hardened selfishness).

It must adjust to two things: to the common welfare and to the source of its own being.

Conscience tells him of the first duty, whether heeded or not; Intuition tells him of the second one, whether ignored or not.

For, overlooked or misconstrued, the relation between evil and man must not hide the fact that the energies and intelligence used for evil derive in the beginning from the divine in man.

They are Godgiven but turned to the service of ungodliness.

This is the tragedy, that the powers, talents, and consciousness of man are spent so often in hatred and war when they could work harmoniously for the World-Idea, that his own disharmony brings his own suffering and involves others.

But each wave of development must take its course, and each ego must submit in the end.

He who hardens himself within gross selfishness and rejects his gentler spiritual side becomes his own Satan, tempting himself.

Through ambition or greed, through dislike or hate which is instilled in others, he must fall in the end, by the Karma he makes, into destruction by his own negative side.




-- Notebooks Category 8: The Ego > Chapter 1: What Am I? > # 191
-- Perspectives > Chapter 8: The Ego > # 48 Paul Brunton