Grace....

In the early stages of spiritual progress, Grace may show itself
in the bestowal of ecstatic emotions. This encourages him to pursue
the Quest and to know that he is so far pursuing it rightly. But the
purpose gained, the blissful states will eventually pass away, as they
must. He will then falsely imagine that he has lost Grace, that he has
left undone something he should have done or done something he should
not have done. The true fact is that it is Grace itself which has
brought this loss about, as constituting his next stage of progress,
even though it affords no pleasure to his conscious mind, but only
pain. His belief that he has lost the direct contact with the higher
power which he formerly enjoyed is wrong: his actual contact was only
an indirect one, for his emotions were then occupied with themselves
and with their pleasure in the experience. He is being separated from
them so that he may be emptied of every desire and utterly humbled in
his ego, and thus made ready for the time when joy, once regained,
will never leave him again. For he is now on the threshold of the
soul's dark night. In that state there is also a work being done for
him by Grace, but it is deep in the subconscious mind far beyond his
sight and beyond his control.(P)

— Notebooks Category 18: The Reverential Life > Chapter 5: Grace > # 238